In highschool, I thought I would go to university and have a lot of boyfriends, experience all kinds of new things, experiment, meet the man I was supposed to fall in love with and maybe get married. This didn't happen- did I do something wrong? Did I miss my chance and will I forever be judged for not having these things? Am I just too afraid to be happy or to be sad? I don't want to even look for a "boyfriend" anymore, because what is the point? We won't stay together unless we are from the same place, and even then, who knows? I'd rather eat good food and watch movies then get dolled up and play the pick up game, only to return home more alone then when I left it. Loneliness is often your best friend and inspiration.