it's an annoying sentiment for me to want to "want" someone
but I can't stop thinking about someone who I wouldn't let myself think about because he was beyond my reach and it was an unreasonable want and a Want to be reserved for Idealizations of Life.
and now I want him but soon I will be done wanting and it will turn to something else
I don't WANT to be dramatic but I am a little bit dramatic

these things aren't helping.
there are worse things in the world than Not Getting What You Want, especially when what you want is for Someone Else to Make Me Feel Good About Myself.

it's annoying when you meet someone who is everything I always say doesn't exist in my world except as Gay Men or Men who Might as well be Married. Although in this case Married also means Emotionally Unavailable or Emotionally Unstable which are interchangable terms.

I just Want to feel loved.