somedays (not always) I find it really difficult to be nice to people. I get so caught up in my own thoughts and my own life and everything becomes about me me me that I can't stand to be around someone, and - there are a few people who are close to me and are exempt from this - I see everyone as incompetent, inefficient, a waste of my time. i think things like i wish they didn't exist. and then i feel bad about myself and wish i didn't exist. I perpetuate a sense of self-hatred and guilt in myself.