security

I've felt for a long time now that all I want is a sense of security. I want to be able to know that everything is going to be ok.
Everything is going to be ok.
I want someone to tell me that.

happy valentine.
my first boyfriend and I made each other valentines that had tigers on them. our first date was the weekend before valentines day. his tiger was better than mine. he was better at everything.
he cheated on me with his ex. I pretended to be sad and hurt but the truth was I didn't care. I didn't love him, I liked spending time with him but sometimes his utter inability to challenge me (he was a nurturer when I didn't want to be nurtured) was frustrating. So I told him we should stop seeing eachother. He pouted around school for weeks and then I started to feel bad.
that feels like forever ago.

This is the beginning.
They say you can never go home.

Confessions are based in trust. (in Deo speramus)

I don't think I trust myself.

To embark on a new adventure is to never know what will come next. I do not know what will come next.